I know I haven't really been on here in quite some time. I'm planning to try my best to start doing more stuff when I can and uploading more things. I will still probably be slow and absent a little bit more because of school and I also have a life too XD lol.

So lately I've gotten a job and a new boyfriend, I've also been trying to hang out with my friends more and getting into more activities so I'm not such a boring lazy person. I also need to lose a few pounds
I've been writing more things and haven't been drawing enough either (which kinda gets me irritated because im also not finishing the stories I'm starting). I also got into an anime club and getting back into yu-gi-oh while making friends as well. Summer is coming soon and I can't wait. I'll have so much more stuff to do then though so I may not be on so much then.

D= I kind of feel like I sort of abandoned DA recently and it makes me feel bad cuz im putting aside my hobbies and the things i love. I'm also sorry to the people who do like to see my new stuff I post most of the time. I wish I could do some more to it though.


I'm so happy right now but a bit irritated at the same time. Happy because I just turned 17 last month and I went to participate in this contest thingy yesterday for paint nail polish design (I would of done pencil art but they could only accept two people to do it from each town, which is LAME) and I got first place ^^ I've also made it in the newspaper for the honor rolls three times. Makes me a bit sad face though cuz im the quiet lonely kid at school. I dont talk to people or anything so people dont really notice me at all. It's strange that i know literally everyone at my school but nobody knows me except my lunch table. I dont get no congratulations or high fives or anything and me being too shy to do crap makes it so i dont even wanna tell anyone.
Anyway, I'm a bit irritated because I don't get to be able to do anything. I even have plans in two weeks and nobody has even confirmed if i can do anything yet. I will be very aggravated if i cant do anything for my spring break. I'll have to slap someone. I can't wait till I turn 18 even though I'll still be in school untill im 19. After I turn 18 I wont necessarily have to ask permission for everything. Also When I turn 18 I'm hoping to get something special from my boyfriend. I know he's gonna help me with some of my goals i want to accomplish like going sky diving and bungee jumping and going to a rave club. I can't wait for those days to come, but at the same time I can. I can wait to turn 18 also. I don't want to feel like I'm aging too fast, but then again, even if I was I'll still act like the child I am xD What's being young without a little crazy right? The only place I'm really mature acting at is at school. I see everyone else acting crazy and they are the ones who get iss or oss and detentions and get yelled at. I guess it makes me a bit nervous. I guess me being shy and everything I'm afraid to show who I really am to the people who are around me the most. I know I shouldn't but I sometimes care what others think. I really shouldn't... it weighs me down too much. But I guess when I think like that I can just tell myself 'Live your life to the fullest. dont care about what others think about you. If they are judgmental, so be it, that's them not me. They cant change who I am and I have every right to be myself no matter where it gets me. If people cant accept me for who I am then fuck them.' I like to cherish the friend I have. I try to think optimistic about everything, finding the happiness of everything. Life is much more pleasant and interesting that way. I make people smile and laugh because of my glowing self. It makes me happy when I make people smile and laugh. Something about it energizes me in some way. I also try to take nothing for granted. Yeah I know that's a little hard to do since I am human and it is in the human nature to take things for granted whether you realize it or like it or not. It's natural. But hey, at least I try right?
Well I guess I gave you enough to read by now xD
I love you all! *Hugs and waves to you* I hope you enjoy what I have to post in the future! =3